this year so far has been pretty.... phased.

had an early adventure right on the second day of school, followed on for about 3 weeks, then the adventure decided to leave and my world seemed to end. and then there was this life support out of nowhere saving me probably without realising it. within a short period of time, this life support became a priority. it became so much of a priority it was driving me mentally insane. something came along and put this priority off course. it took another few weeks of shit to focus on that priority again. it was a happy period of time following that, even til today, actually, even though tears were shed, worries were placed and sometimes this thing i needed so much was going to be jeopardised and taken away from me. they would eventually make its way out in the end. everything would be what i call 'okay'. the holidays pained me a bit. the priority was there, still, but i couldnt stand going without it. i cant take it.

tomorrows the first day of school and i hope things get better.

im such a pessimist though, everything seems to go wrong for me no matter how close to alright it may be.

the priority will still be a priority for life, no matter how apart the priority is.
i need you so much and i hope youll know this is on an everyday basis.

cant wait to see you sweetheart